Thanks to you all who reached out an reassured me that we all have those kind of weeks. I always want to be real when I blog. I want to show how my life really is, not just the good stuff. I want to be HONEST.
I lost my wallet Friday night and spent an hour watching the poor kid at the Regal Cinema sift through bags and bags of trash 'til he finally found it and I broke out in tears. Seriously, Dai, tears over that. I felt a little ridiculous, honestly.
I realized that cried a lot last week. I cried while praying for Daisy and her cancer. I cried when I found my wallet. I cried when I left and my boy wasn't with me. I cried when I found out that a dear couple close to my heart is getting a divorce. A divorce. I was in SHOCK and after the week I had, I simply couldn't take it. This was a couple that I thought would make it through anything. I don't know why they are getting a divorce. I don't know how long they have been separated. I love them both so much. My heart was devastated. Devastated for their family. Devastated for their marriage. Devastated.
Tantrums. Sadness. Cancer. Divorce.
I realized something about myself this weekend....I am the kind of person who really feels pain when others suffer. I take it on. I cry as though it's my burden. Why? Why am I like that? Why do I put myself through this? I DO NOT know. I can't help it.
And yet, I find joy in all the blessings around me. . I know I have a strong marriage. I have amazing kids. I have amazing friends. I have an amazing family. I have so much to be thankful for and so much to be happy about. I sat in church Sunday with my friends on my mind and heavy on my heart. I will pray for them. That really is all I can do. I know I have Jesus and thank heavens I have Him! He is the light in all this darkness, boy am I glad I have Jesus to lay all my burdens upon. I am lucky to have him.
Here is to a better week ahead!
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